||[09 Jul 2005|06:18pm]
My name is Amber Leigh DeLorme.
But I don't think you know who I am.
-I really don't like half the people I pretend to like.
-I don't drink as much as you would like to think. (I lie a lot too.)
-I don't have as much sex as you think I do.
-I'm not as sad as you think I am
-I'm not as happy as you think I am ether.
-I'm not the player most of you thought I was back in the day.
-I really was lonely.
-I really still am.
-I miss knowing who my real friends are.
-I miss feeling wanted.
-I never loved them.
-I wanted to.
(but I let myself get treated like shit each time.)
-I'm not as cute as you say I am.
-And I'm not weak. Not anymore.
(16 Ring out the gong again | Carve out this hymn in skin)